It is so crazy to think it has already been this long.
I remember exactly what I wore that day, how beautiful the weather was, and how frustrated I was with my teacher.
Then, BAM, my life was changed forever.
So many emotions flooding my head. It is a day of grief for what was lost, but also a day of joy for what was given, life.
Sometimes I have asked God, Why?
Why did you choose me for this? I am too weak, why did you give me such a challenging battle?
Why did my life have to change so dramatically that it would affect me every day for the rest of my life?
To be honest, I may not ever know.
Today while I was working out a song came on my play list that I love and listen to a lot. Today though, It had a whole new meaning.
It then hit me, that this wasn't unplanned.
God has been preparing my whole life for this.
It had already been written down in His story.
He has given me the strength to go through this, putting me through trials before this even took place.
He put hard people in my life, such as my teacher, to make fun of or criticize me in public to prepare me for this.
He has been there every step of the way, even the ones I didn't know I was taking that would prepare me for the rest of my life.
Isn't that just awesome!?
I really do just love this song!
My favorite lyrics in the song are :
Kneeling on this battleground
Seeing just how much you've done
Knowing every victory
Is Your power in us.
Amen!
I look back at this year, and WOW! God has done great things!!
I should be dead, but He saved me.
He gave me patience to learn how to get dressed, fix my hair, and put on my make-up.
He gave me strength to get up each day and not look back.
He has given me peace when my phantom pains seemed unbearable.
He provided a car, and He gave me peace to get back on the road.
I mean really I could go on and on.
He did all of that. For me.
How can I not have joy?
I know this may sound crazy, but this has been the best year of my life.
I have learned so much about God.
I have learned and experienced that God says I am beautiful no matter what, I am enough, that I have peace, joy, and strength to get through each day and I can do whatever I set my mind to! (Even if people say I can't!!)
I have learned that God has called me to be His servant. To love and embrace others with the mercy and grace Christ has shown me.
Lastly,
I know God chose me for a reason. Why? Because He has given me hope, and He is faithful.
God is so good!!!!
Thank you for being there for me moment one. I love each of you! Many blessings! :)
